9 months young

Life sucks sometimes. I had an amazing cat that I got off the vet clinic. She was in perfect shape, the healthiest cat ever and then all of a sudden yesterday she started breathing wrong, not eating, drinking, not going to het litter box and not playing anymore. She was panting all the time. I just thought that she got a little bit sick and that was it…I guess I was wrong. After a visit to the emerg vet I found out that her heart was twice the size it was supposed to be and that some liquid in her body was causing the breathing problem and suffering. 30 minutes I found out that there was nothing else they could do to save her and that I was better off taking her out of her misery…that’s what I did..I feel like shit ever since then….

I always thought that having a cat pass away/die on me would not affect me.I guess I was wrong. Is it because I actually cared about my cat, because I’ve witnessed my fathers suicide or a combination of both….

Life is fucked up and we are so busy everyday that we never really take the time to appreciate/acknowledge it. We are always busy with work, friends, going out and so on that we don’t notice the little things anymore.

I don’t believe in god but I want to thank someone that’s out there for making me realize that I should really enjoy and appreciate life…all this because my cat is now dead…I really wasn’t expecting that today. I guess life can always throw you a curve ball and fuck you up….

Chupita you were the best cat ever.

Hopefully I’ll see you on the other side one day…